Today was teacher's day celebrations. Went school early, and slept in class (we usually leave all the lights off in the morning and just SLEEP!). So yeah, lazed arnd and talked a bit. Gd tt most of us are lookin forward to the hols n are not so pessimistic, including me! how wonderfull. At least we know it's the start of the holidays, and the huge pile of work will only start to bother us arnd the mid week of the hols. Amazing how a holiday does wonders when it's more or less the same as a normal school week because of the work and cca and all that...
Anyway, thnx to KC and M. Neo and KC's mb friend and whoever eles for lending our band a drumset, and also for helping me set up so early!! Haha, so sry I didn't help was sleeping in class. haiz. So anyway, we had the sec 3 teachers seatin @ the back of the JB atrium, and the students on the floor. The first item was some video of the teachers, which was quite amusing because they had this repetitive section showcasing Mr. Mag owning everyone in soccer @ the astroturf, which was hilarious! But gr8 job to the developers of the clip.
Then had some T-shirt presentation thing to the teachers. Aftr that was some funny funky dance (played to the music of "I like to move it"). Everyone stood up, and stoned while the music was being played. Then 2 guys randomly ran to the front and started doing HARDOGHEY actions!!! In front of the whole cohort and the TEACHERS! Luckily I don't think the teachers saw because they were blocked out by the students. But like...wth la. Hardgay on teacher's day. omgomgomg...
So after that, it was the song dedication part. Had de bu dao de ai 1st, with jorel as lead singer in quan wei's place. He sounded way too 'choirish', and had no resemblance to jay chou's voice but whatsoever. But gd try! btw jorel learnt the song last nite haha. Then it was us: dian nao you xi. Haha, we just spammed and spammed. I must get the vid asap then can send to everyone whee!
Then the audience called for encore!!! haha cuz it's rather retarded n crazy but NICE. So louis went on first with the 1st eng song haha. The only eng song out of a total of 4 (the rest were chinese). So the malay teachers were stoning around. so sad...
So finally. We got J. Lim out to sing his new composition: LING YONG QIAN. we sang along while he played beautifully on the piano. the song was even more retarded than dian nao you xi....so the audience was roaring with laughter and so were all of us while singing. hahahaha, anyway, at least we had a good time (=
(I shall skip this part just in case 'someone' that reads this will KILL some other people). haha, so sry to trouble you all k??? But thnx a lot you all rly been a great help (if you know who you are). So after that we stoned around @ J8. Went yoshi for lunch b4 MEP DMP, which was @ the soundberg recording studio that was uber nice and professional and wtf DAMN COOL...it was the best recording studio in singapore according to our trainer (for the DMP course). So we explored the place, and the drumset there was unbelievable. Costumized and totally miked up. Was damn ownage.....
So after that, I went home with Dng and we just realised WE LIVE SO NEAR EACH OTHER!!! For 3 years we did not realise that -.-!!! haha, then dng, who was high on the bus back to sch (btw all of us were high on the way there and back), was laughing like crap when my mum came to give him a ride back to his house (cuz it was raining, Again...). He was amused with this toy chick in the car and it was super funny, cuz he kept laughing, and laughing.... and dunno do what else (like immitating the chaiyeow thing). So when he got off my mum was like, whoa, that's really crazy. HA! Anyway, Dng don't ever quit MEP cuz we need you in class (=
yay, gd to hear that now with the hols things, AND people, are brightening up. whee
teacher's day!
Heyy (=
Today is a holiday. How enjoyable....to wake up in the morning and go to school -.-
Ahh, well, had to prac for teacher's day performance tmr, which was quite screwed up cuz we couldn't get the CO drumset, and everybody kept going out of rhythm. The acousticss was also screwed up, vol balance etc. Yeah, more or less unfruitful prac. BUT at least we know how to adjust things for tmr (=
Went to lunch @ pastamania with yanni, gabby, jorel, n leonard @ J8. We shared 2 10 inch pizzas, which was quite worth it cuz each person had to pay only $4. I sponsored the drinks!!! From NTUC, 1.5L chilled drink for $1.90 hahaha. But well, enough for all of us. So we slacked around and wasted quite a bit of time (all of us had time to kill). We had lunch for almost an hour!! B4 jorel n me left; the rest went back 2 sch. Jorel n me took the train towards jurong east, and i got off @ ang mo kio (which was 1 stop only...for 45 cents).
The sky darkened, accompanied with god's wrath xD. Yeah, and I ran through the rain n thunder towards the bus stop because I saw the bus coming, and it drove past....So well, had to wait another 10 min+ b4 the next bus came. And when it did, it was already 1.45pm. I thought I was late by then.
And i didn't realise takin 73 to rosyth sch was so fast!! @ most 10 min reach already. Yay, at least I wasn't That late. Well, so I went to the coffeeshop to grab a bite and wait for people. And waited, and waited...until tiankai came (= Then, we went to rosyth together (btw i took the long way thru the HDB flats cuz I was early. TK took the short and direct route towards sch, and was totally drenched). So yeah, more waiting. We walked around the school, said hi to the canteen uncle, stoned around, waited for more people. And the new principal...argh, how stupid. Same announcement was made 4 times over the PA system telling all ex-rosythians to stay in the IBC and not wander around school...
Then theng came, in a car! So lucky....ahaha. He just finished training (= So the 3 of us cont waiting. After that nick eng and wee keat came along. Then....the gals AND japheth. Finally, tze heng WITH wee seng. lol...We took a bit of time talking to the teachers etc. until we all finally decided to zao and go to the coffeeshop outside sch to eat. theng, jappy, tk, weekeat, tzeheng, nickeng n me shared $4 worth of fries, which tasted as good as it used to be. TK had his own meal aftr tt (btw wee seng left early. he couldnt stand us. shoo!). Then we started discussing bout the chalet, and theng smsed evelynfoo (which he called jie for some strange reason. eve said it's cuz she's older than him but I believe there's some other reason ;P) to discuss cuz they were seating somewhere else.
So aftr discussing @ our side, theng n me went over...finally. and stacey told us we took 6 min...haiz. Let us have our time together first okay (just the boys)! =) So we started discusing, and weekeat, tzeheng, and nickeng didnt want to come over so they left. tk and jappy joined us a bit later. Whoa, new faces appeared, some I would never recognise as my ex-classmate! The boys didn't change much (except in size), but most of the gals changed until I had no idea who they were. oops xD forgive me I don't have a good memory, cnt match you to the faces of the past.
Evelynfoo: Didn't change that much, except stronger. (gal y do u look so sad???)
Eileentay: Bout the same too, bit more mature.
Josephine: Slight difference, just a scaled up version of last time.
Staceyannefernandez: quite a bit. new hair, face still about the same though.
Tamilai: new hair, face changed a lot. More muscular? haha. I should think so.
Denise: Whole New Person!!
So well, at least I get to see how we've all grown over the past 3 yrs. So yeah, talked for a long time...Because, some people called mingmei to come, and the boys wanted to see how she looked like. Heh, rumours that she was stronger than TK. Smth that needed to be seen, or disproved.
So well, People! We are most likely gonna have a 1 day outing. Movie, BBQ, etc. during the Dec hols, probably the week b4 x'mas. Besides that, talked about school, each other, others, more crap. haha...
eileen, josephine, denise went back first, as we awaited the arrival of the one! My mum n sis came to the same coffeeshop too! Sadly, they waved to me while I wasn't looking. and vice versa for me. yikes! wad a sad coincidence. So well, we sat for almost 3 hrs!! Talking n doing stuff. Btw, jappy felt bored and went home and came back twice. And that got him high. LOL. Either way we all couldn't go home cuz it was raining cats n dogs. So, we had no choice but to talk more! haiz. But yeah, I did have a good time to see old friends (=
And people, Ming Mei is not what you think. She looks the SAME, just with more meat on. But no way stronger than TK (I think so...). But well, we'll see when they do arm wrestle with each other HAHA! (=
ok need to sleep for teacher's day performance tmr (today already. it's past 12). Hope to see you all soon. Just keep in touch. everyone. I don't like the feeling of losing a friend!
this is reality.
Damnit, my life is just so totally messed up I can just....sigh...you could say I've been rather depressed over the past few weeks/months. I do appear normal and happy in school and all that, but I'm just not satisfied with reality. The things that happen, totally unexpected and uncalled for. You could say I just need to get used to it. Used to how society works.
As someone told me, all this should be left behind...someday, some divine interventention would make all the pieces fit together. I'm really looking forward and praying hard for that day.
So well, about the visit to Rosyth...many people can't make it. Likewise for our class outing and MEP orch gathering. Yikes, this is so saddening. But i'll see what I can do.
*Need to get myself back on track (= I've sidetracked, and I dunno where I am!
Mask
You wear one. So do I. We all love masks, they hide us, protect us? Well, sort of, people see your mask, I want to see beneath it. What is really behind this mask? It it really the person I knew, or at least thought so?
This needs careful consideration, ya. I need...pliers of trust, a screwdriver of fate, and a drill of destiny, and you, whoever you are. I want to see your face, and I will seek it. Knock and it shall be answered. I do agree somehow.
And then, you'll have a time of your life. I'll nourish you with bountiful happiness, feed you with heaps of joy and what not. I don't know, but I feel like making some people feel happy, including myself.
Or, you could just take of that mask yourself and show yourself. Courageous one.
Run to the lord, not away. He will provide for you! The wonderful truth will be known to you too.
Hmph, I don't know what's going on. Just a thought that's quite hard to explain with mere words.
Mixed feelings
In the midst of all my piles of homework, I find joy in the fact that we are finally gonna showcase dian nao you xi to the whole school LOL. It'll be funny but enjoyable. Argh, finally finished chem DMP assignment, still gotta mug for the chem test. bleh...crap la! Physics test nxt week, maths PT, chem PT, plus so many extra seminars + classes + esp. AGM prep. Life is uber sian...
You're Beautiful - Random thing to take my attention away from work
I saw you lying on the desk, arms folded, eyes closed. You were sound asleep, adorable lamb. That innocent look in you, unaware of life's dangers, unfazed by life's challenges. In that innocence I saw strength and boldness. Yet you still seemed so dear, dainty, something that could be carried away by a light breeze. I don't know. But it was still an adorable sight.
I wish I were the one. Unknown to reality yet, deep in my slumber, in my own world. I would have liked to stay like that forever, or relax in some other remote place in the world. Nevertheless, you're still the one soundly asleep, and I'll pat you to sleep if you ever wake up. Don't fret. I know your life is like a dog, like mine. You work and slog through the week, the signs are apparent on your face. Yet, they still disappear when you are there. Where? I do not know. I don't care. You still look ever so beautiful, even with all that scars, physical and emotional. What else can I say. I want to enter your world, and I will now. Goodnight.
things.
sigh. work comes load after load. with upcomin AGM even worse...dangit. I dunno...I've been withstanding wave after wave since June. I'm growin stronger after each test, yet weakening too. Soon, without so much as a good break, I'll finally succumb to that final gush, and I'll be swept away, away, away....
but thnx to dmp, a timely bit of aid at such a time (=
Stuff to do:
Maths PT
Chem DMP
Chem PT
Phy PT
AGM prep: cert + song
New meaning...
It was that spark of inspiration, out of the blues and totally random. How intriguing! Something so full of meaning can actually suddenly pop up in front of your face out of nowhere. Maybe it was god given (which I believe to be) that came in an earthly form (a dream?), or maybe it just sprang out from weeks of brainstorming.
But well, at least I know now and can justify it. Yes, true love DOES exist. By saying this I do not mean love like in trivial BGRs, something strangely I am not affected by up till this age. You could call that biological, but I wish to believe that it was gift; and I can concentrate on my studies! (=
Pure true love is similiar to Jesus dying on the cross for us, which HAS occured on Earth! And yes, smiliar acts of sacrifice have also been carried out on earth before. E.g. motherly love can cause mum to sacrifice her life for her child. I find it awesome that such things can actually happen, on such a place as Earth! And I choose to believe that both Jesus's and a mother's sacrifices are equally great, just that Jesus' one is much much more powerful, a purer form of true love.
Besides that, I also do believe that every single person on Earth has this value in him or her. This gift was breathed into us by the lord before we were born, and it is through his love that we are and were created (this confirm's TA's point of view that creation is the concept of love). But, it is dormant in us, awaiting us to warmly receive it and open our doors to let it into our bodies. It is something that must be discovered, and I believe people who have eaten more salt than us would have already found it (Parents in the most trying situations still treasure this value dearly).
However, this value can be skewed, bent in the wrong way, such that it becomes wrong, or even a sin. People like terrorists love their God so much that they are willing to sacrifice their lives. By my definition doesn't that count as true love? This is a counter example which I would like to clarify. In the first place, sacrifice means dying for the sake of everyone else. By killing yourself, ALONG WITH other lives, this does NOT count as sacrifice.
So yeah, that's about it. Remember, the value of true love is within you. Someday, just like how this bright spark appeared, it will ring like an alarm in your head. That will be the right time to readily accept it, nature's way of saying that you are growing close to afterlife. Before that, try to discover it in you, and await its calling. Yet, be wary of how it can be abused, and I strongly believe that by using the Bible as a benchmark you will not go astray.
p.s. this is a raw form of my intepretation of true love, which maybe refined when I come around to do so.
Yan Sheng on Bass guitar and Gabriel Tan vocals too (from left)
Yong Yuan Ban Shui Wo He Ni - Temasek Sec
Pics frm SAJC Song Writing Competition
And btw, congrats to all the winners. Temasek Sec and NJC. Both songs were rly nice! Haiz, the judges didnt like our screwed up performance though )= The guitar overwhelmed the singing, and the pedal for the bass drum broke 10 bars into the song. How sad...but anyway, we still had a great time together. (= hope all those others did too. We all tried our best.
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Lead the way,
Dear child.
Don't bother about them.
For if you do,
The leaves will rustle,
The skies show their fury.
Don't be afraid,
Dear child.
For if you do,
Those green monsters will,
Those that terrify your slumber.
Come hear,
Listen to me,
Heed my word.
Heart-spoken advice.
Those trees swaying,
The land shaking,
Mocking at you.
Your soul in fits.
Soothingly peaceful,
Oh that silent thundering voice.
You need to rest,
Rest you must!
Don't be afraid,
Dear Child.
For if you do,
I will find you,
And punish you hard.
Your soul be healed,
I claim in Jesus' name.
For all you weary people out there like me; just a little thought to motivate you all through your struggles. And it's peaceful here, in the school library =D
Bleh...
Still up. And 2 big events coming up. Dian Nao You Xi FINALS TODAY!! Waa. Hope we win smth =D. We sound much better on thurs YAY. And AGM! All the preps are gng on now. shhh cnt talk too much. But hopefully it'll be good and the sec 4s will enjoy it! ok time to sleep whee.
oh...
Surprisingly. Today, with a crammed up scedule for DMP. (full day + external modules), I felt happy and satisfied. Dunno, but sometimes you just feel it. Comes and goes randomly. Heh, but econs module today was fun =D
Maybe it's because I'm not doing work tonite. A good time to take a snapshot of my own life as it speeds past.
13th Aug 2006
C. Fung n J. sei (dunno whether it's spelt like that) came for cell today. Brought by tat wai the gay (i'll explain why later). So yeah, we had yet another indepth lesson about how the Bible came about. Better than most of the Luke ones we did =D. Haha but J. Sei being totally new to all this christian thingy was at a total lost, so...he went back to church early with tat wai. Anyway, after that, we went back to church. Brought C. Fung arnd for a lil' tour, n he's a nice guy, DuN gEt fOoLeD bY hIs ApPeArAnCe okay...haha cuz he's so big n strong n he's a rugger etc. but he's still cool =D. So yeah, we finally ended up in the lvl 3 hall, where we usually have our youth services, and voila, we saw the gay: tat wai xD. HAHAHAHA, up till now I still can't get over it! He was supposed to be a model for some catwalk thingy, and he was dressed in retro clothes: Bell bottom jeans, a beige n white striped shirt, and some brownish translucent shades. And worst of all, he tucked in his shirt until very tight and pulled his pants up. Sigh, I pity retro fashion...
So, already lookin so funny, he carried forth his performance by sticking out his chest while doing the catwalk, and did some kawaii crap (totally out of place), with some other cool retros moves that didn't fit his look at all!!! Arrr, was uber funnny. We were all laughing at the back like crap. So yeah, tts y he was THE GAY this morning ;P. So after that, had another long-winded sermon, as usual...and yeah, beating-around-the-bush kinda stuff, but it was super funny, and also a bit shocking, even C. Fung and me were like, "wtf..." and J. Sei was telling me, "I bet he rapcens towh (rearrange the letters yourself xD)." Because, he was talkin bout dressin as a christian, then he was showing us non-examples, and he was saying, "I had a hard time, because while searching for mini skirt on the net porn stuff appeared too....", and later on "I know, but guys get turned on by..." OMG, a pastor preachin like that. So yeah, it was a bit queer to sit there n listen.
Yay, I nid to finish a bit more work (sigh). Argh, now's DMP, and we still got so many performance tasks...so crappy, but at least I have fewer lessons YAY. And...Dian Nao You Xi thing (the finals) IS THIS FRIDAY!!! Hopefully we can win smth. People who want to support us; it's at SAJC Cultural Centre, 6pm this fri (18th Aug). It's really nice! Ask me for sample vid or Na for her opinion LOL. Gaby n Jorel singing paikia song, u should know wad to expect. HAHA! ok gtg now..
11th August 2006
This post is for yesterday; haven't been posting a bit. haha i'm just lazy =D. anyway, I had NO DMP yesterday in the mornin. So yeah, I woke up late, slacked around at home (YAY!), before changing and going to school for the dian nao you xi thing. I could skip DMP because of this! haiz, but i still remain neutral, because the DMP was quite interesting (econs), and I wanted to go!
Today, we had to go to SAJC for the 1st run-through, and we were damn confused because someone told us that we did not need to bring our instruments. Then our teacher called and asked, "Have you brought your instruments?" I told her no need to, and either way no one else brought their instruments. Then she was like, wtfomgknnbccb (jk), " You were supposed to bring your instruments, check the instructions!!!" Champion. We all didn't bring anything. except our bass guitarist who brought his amp (quite pointless??).
So, we still had to go there, without our instruments. Luckily, this was just the 1st run-through. So yeah, we went there, and had to tell the teachers we would go last because our 2 vocalists weren't here yet too, besides not bringing our instruments. To add to that, 4 people from our group didn't bring their photocopied ICs. I'll cry after finishing the rest. Then, the lyrics sheet that J. Lim gave to the teacher was screwed up, she did not know what to type on the ppt, to show our lyrics on a screen. So, J. Lim had to indicate where the chorus and verses were, etc.
When he finished, he went up to the teacher, and KNOCKED ON THE CHAIR! Then the teacher was like (translated from chinese), " Excuse me, we are teachers too you know, don't knock on the chair like that." Omg...J. Lim turned around and was like, wtfomgknnbccb, screwed! Lucky they didn't care much after that. Soon after that, we finally went on the stage to do a sound test, and decide the position of the vocalists and the instruments. We tested with one amp, one borrowed bass guitar, 2 vocalists, and J. Lim improvising on the piano. Sounded uber dry, but yeah still okay! However, the vocalists, as usual, were stoning and singing too much like choir boys, and it sounded "anachronistic". Yikes, so the teacher told them, "You got to have more life in you!" Haha, I went on to pinch Gaby's cheeks to being some life into him. So yeah, this will probably be our biggest letdown, if they sing like GUAI kids instead of the pai kia they're supposed to be.
After that, we went on photo taking journey round the school. So yeah, take photos here and there. On the way back, we saw a basket of tennisballs. No one was around, and J. Lim's soccer instincts got the better of him, so as we passed by, a hand reached into the basket and grabbed a ball. But he was caught. HAHA! nice try, J. Lim. So we finally went back, again, and the teacher then told us to write an intro about our song. So we thought a while, and after brainstorming, we finally came up with this: Dian Nao You Xi is a song composed 100% in higher chinese class, in 10 minutes. It is a song about..... So we handed up, and the teacher was like, wtfomgknnbccb (jking again), I can't put this into the ppt to show others! yay, so she told us that she would help us write instead =D.
After that, the teacher called everyone onto the stage to sing the finale song, some oldie cheena thing that I haven't even heard of or practice at all. Likewise for the rest of the people (most of them), so as the music was being played, most of us were stoning/trying to sing, and yah, it was a bit retarded. Then the teacher, to rub salt into the already opened wound, was like (translated from Chinese), " Raffles Institution, you all haven't learn your piece! Make sure you learn it before the next practice okay...?" What a nice way to put it...
So finally, after that screwed up session, we were free! Rushed to Buona Vista MRT straight after that, to meet up with my friends for dinner. I thought I was late, but later on when I called them as I was on the way, N. Yun, " We are still waiting for Charles, still at Bishan." Once again, I was like, wtfomgknnbccb (jking yet again), but I told him to CAB HERE NOW or else we'd all be late, because we haven't eaten dinner, and it was like 6.15pm, and the concert started at 7pm. So, finally, they came! And we could finally move out! So we crossed the overhead bridge (which they came from ;P), to the bus stop to take 95. The bus came, and we got on.
According to my friend that worked in NUS (we were going to the NUS cultural centre), he said just take one stop and alight, because the cultural centre was right there. So well, I believed him, and we all song jong, because we were lost and didn't know how to get to NUS. So all of them were like, "Thanks a lot man, your friend has really been a great help..." (to put it in a nice way). We asked the pedestrians around there, but they all did not know too. So, we went back to the bus stop, and waited for the next 95. When it came, I went up to ask the bus driver how to get to NUS, then he told us to hop on board, and my friends were grinning menacingly at me. SRY LA! I also not sure lor...
M. Neo, " Come here boy...I'm gonna...", HAHA, screwed! So finally, we decided to get off the bus inside NUS, which was uberuber humoungously gigantically colossally BIG. Once again, we were lost, but at least we were inside NUS, which still did not help much. So we went to ask the people around, and they instructed us to take Bus 95 AGAIN. Once again, all of my friends were like, "I'm GONNA KILL YOU!" haha, super funny. BTW they were all joking all the while, not that they were really pissed at me.
So we decided not to take the bus a third time, but walked all the way there, so we could also eat dinner when we passed by some food stalls. It was already 7pm, so we had to rush, and we brisked walked aimlessly, until we came to a subway stall. Yay, salvation, we could finally eat dinner. Then the the lady at the stall told us, no more bread, so we had cookies + salad + drink for dinner. Haiz, though it tasted WEIRD, it was still healthy ;D. Once again, we went to ask the people around there, and finally, they gave us some directions. So after grabbing dinner, we walked and ate on the way. We walked, and walked, and walked, and when we were almost there, Leonard exclaimed, "I lost my ticket!" GG, we waited for him, and after waiting for so long that we decided he would not come back, we continued our hike towards the cultural centre.
AH...at last! We saw the big sign, "cultural centre", and many people inside. We weren't late! thank god. We quickly went in to join the rest of the people, and went to meet up with friends etc. right before the concert started. The concert started 10 minutes late, because there were so few people!! And they closed the top floor, so that more people would fill up the first 2 levels. The conert commenced, and D. seet was the concert master for the 1st half. They played stravinksy's Pulcinella, Suite of Orchestra, followed by Tchaikovsky's Variations on a Rococo Theme for Cello and Orchestra. The first song was a bit out of style, found it too classical-like for such a song, but for the 2nd song, the virtuosic solo cellist from SSO was ownage, and his playing style was really funny. He kept strutting his head around like a peacock! Hahaha, the audience was sniggering too.
So finally, it was intermission, we went out to meet our friends, and I gave some flowers to them too (had a total of 13, of which 5 were given). So we talked around, took pics, and we had to go back for the 2nd half. SO FAST!! Didn't have much time to talk at all! Anyway, the first item for the second half was Villa-Lobos' Bachianas Brasilieras No. 1, for cello ensemble. Chang da man led the group, and M. Chua was there too! The song was nice, and they blended in very well, except for certain parts which were quite obviously out of tune. After that was the finale item, Mozart's Symphony No. 41 in C Major, "The Jupiter". They performed that in commeration of the 250th Anniversary of Mozart's Century. It was really zai, a good performance in my opinion, and they had 2 encores, of which N. Yun and M. Neo were complaining because they wanted to go home. And N. Yun was damn pro man, we took the sour skittles packet and poured all the remaining sour powder into his mouth, and he was like, wtfomgknnbccb (or at least trying to say that; he couldn't talk properly). Ownage sourness, but who ask him pour everything into his mouth! Haha, and N. Yun being his usual self told us the girl behind was damn cute... -.-
Yay! So we clapped on and before they left the stage after the 2nd encore, I shouted, "REMUS WHANG!" And it sounded really wrong, for those who did not know who remus was. Ooops xD. After the concert, we could meet up again! yay, so we talked, and gave flowers to the performers (the remaining ones). The stupid door person didn't let us go backstage! Argh, so we had to wait outside for the performers, who came out one by one all over the place. zzz, so troublesome! So yeah, went to say hi to many people, including Tat Wai who was seating behind us! woohoo, didn't know he'd come. And Ctoh was trying to kope my flowers...being himself as usual. --..--. Finally, I gave all my flowers! So we decided to head out for supper after N. Yun pestered us like siao. Took MRT to Raffles Place, then half of us rushed to Lau Pa Sat to eat (the other half were lagging behind so they decided to go home). N. Yun, M. Neo, and I shared 1 bowl of Ice Kacang, and rushed back to the MRT. Haha, we got onto the 3rd last train, woohoo! Just nice =D. So yeah, finally got home before I plonked on my bed and went into a deep sleep. It was fun!
oh yah i forgot to add...
just for those who think that work is all im troubled about...there's other bigger conflicts...which i would like to keep personal ;P. Every other blogger probably has other probs too, besides work, its just that we are only comfortable in sharing the prob of work.
Someday...ah nvm.
im just going craziii.
9th August 2006
Dont be quick to judge! Argh, once again im back to my sleeping late ways. Because of work. And to come to think of it, DMP does not really help much...
Now that it is proven that DMP does not equal slack, I shall try to get back to my old ways, and forget about slacking. sigh, wad an opportunity! it was right there, yes, but still out of grasp. It was so close, just an inch more, I'm getting to it already! then it decided that I should go back and work more, i dont deserve my reward just yet, and poof, it vanished out of sight in an instant.
Sigh, at least im still glad its just DMP and its a holiday, not some loaded week. I'll look forward with each new day, yet, from experience, each day just passes by, like any other day, and a new day begins, AGAIN. wads there to look forward to? well, nothing much. but still, i have to agree that I WANT HOLS! yay, anyway, watched NDP on TV. It was OKAY, not that spectacular...so yeah, again, quite pointless. after that went to play Generals w/ jonlim, nick and soonyong. but it was screwed up as ever. Lag + DC. zzzzz, so we didn't have a complete game.
well, I shall try to be the most optimistic a pessimist can be, and hopefully, each day will start to have some meaning in them. !!! how stupid can I get. I will never find meaning in each day. Been so busy until I start forgetting about him. Jehovah Jira, he will provide. I need to come back to him, what stupidity...yes, at least now life has meaning =D. thnx for giving me that inspiration, that bright spark in the midst of darkness lord. u made me remember you.
day b4 national day.
today is a day where we should all be feeling a sense of belonging to singapore. a sense of identity and attachment to our homeland. Well, i dont, and most of us dont. Somehow the way society works in Singapore makes us immune to all this national pride thingy, we're just too sceptical about all these kinda stuff. So, yeah, I did feel that today's national day celebration in sch was quite a waste of time! sigh, 3 hrs of boredom, make that 4 cuz of stupid RE presentation.
Lunch came after that, and YAY, the most interesting way to spend your holiday....TUTION! had chinese tution, then piano lesson. WHEN I COULDVE BEEN LANNING! argh. so well, its been a pointless day for me. stoning arnd, doing work, etc.
bleh i'll just have an early nite then. cya.
Finally...
Finally, my post is not over 12am.
Finally, I can sleep early.
Finally, I won't be stressed out.
Finally, DMP has started and I can slack.
Things need to come to an end, regardless of how long you push it or how much will power you have. It will still eventually come to an end. And I am glad it has. If this had continued, I would have been driven mad. LOL. It's 11.57pm now. maybe when i post this i'll be the next day. but well, at least i can have a breather now.
I will heave a huge sigh of relief now, *sigh*, and this sigh is not one of anguish nor depression, as all those before have been. It is one of contentment, satisfaction, and full of vigour. And this will be a significant juncture in my sec sch life. I am quite certain that I have never been so stressed out before. And now that all that pain has been thrown away, buried deep in the abyss of my dreaded past. It is time for a new ruler to take over: Happiness. yay, don't you really enjoy that feeling. Ironically, it's a feeling that spawns from school. After so much suffering, you just feel so happy that you have pulled through, so happy that you have finally suceeded, so happy that you have finally let your hair down. Oh, that feeling...how lovely. It will be a time of =D, :D, and more XD. I will try to treasure it as dearly as I can.
and btw, a big thnx to all those tht hve helped me pull through one of the hardest journeys in my life, at least tts the most difficult one so far...
6th August 2006
sigh, i've gradually been becoming a nocturnal animal. everyday also slp in the mornin...yikes! rly tired, so i'll try to keep everything short and sweet.
G2 is opened! yay, went there for eng service this morning. the place is nice, n the sound system owns! sadly the place smelt weird. tt kinda smell tt puts u off. Anyway, its still nice, and cosy, high-teh, innovative, wadeva. but its kinda far frm our house. sigh...but i'll still return to G2 once in a while though =D
bleh, i dun wan type anymore. my brain's just gonna burst anytime soon if i cont thinking. well, did nothing much for the rest of the day except prepare for infocomm comp. on mon. ARGH! hate the program they asked us to use. its quite retarded n featureless. sigh, either way we signed up for it so we hve no escape.
DMP has started (like now, today), n im lookin forward to it. hopefully it'll be less stressful! ok i nid my beauty slp. rly. BB!
5th August 2006
Once again im posting past 12am. oh no, thts a bad sign...haha but yeah, its quite nice to stay up late =D. no one disturbs u, and u can do ur stuff in peace. Coincidentally, homework needs a lot of concentration, so you should do it late @ nite/early in the morning like 1.00am, and sleep in sch the nxt day.
today, i had nothing much, as usual. just work, work, and more work. wad a boring life. played a bit C & C, n dota too. n of course, tried out Alice, some 3D program tt we nd to use for infocomm comp. its an interactive, colourful, and easy to use program. 3D novies should try it out, its rly simple to use. so yeah, came up with an idea of wad we'd be doing for the comp. and tested out a few stuff. so far so good, though it needs to look smoother. after workin on tt, left e house for my sis' sch performance. it was rather okay, with some good performances, and others tt were not so impressive. jon lim, and yan sheng's sis were performing too, both on the piano. both played well, but i luved the cello one the most. the cellist was uber ownage! the finale was also not bad =D. after the concert, finally went out 4 dinner. super hungry!! i just ordered and gobbed down everything. yummmm xD. so now im kinda bloated n will stay up till my stomach digests some food. tts all 4 now, bye.
oh yeah, DMP is gonna start n im overjoyed. yay!
4th August 2006
hmph. had mths test today, and it was okay =D philo n chinese were zzz....but arts @ atrium was not bad, except we sang erm....did not sound 'together' enough, our tones didnt blend. CLE was pointless too (as usual), but fun. im so sad! the final round of the interhouse infocomm challenge was a failure. so few people turned up, and it was rather disorganised. but hei, hei hullett! we won 1st place. so now we'll have a gd chance of getting top house this yr. whee! dian nao you xi prac was okay too, but needed to go slower, n de vocals needed to pronounce their words more clearly. haha. but gaby n jorel still as cute as ever. LOL! bleh, got home late, n been tokin on MSN. played generals with jon lim, its a laggy game for laggers who constantly lag out. haha, but we'll play again later on tonite xD, n i'll see whether my opinion changes. cya ppl. oh yeah, n DMP's about to start. im overjoyed now!
3rd August 2006
oh man. been updating every morning. this is bad. but today i shall be optimistic for once as the week draws to a close. ytd (5 min ago) wasn't the best of days, but i'll try to be happy about it (oh man, how ironic). anyway, ss was okay. so was chinese, history, phy, and assembly. now tht sounds like a gd start. and i did nt totally screw up for de MEP performance! finally, a decent score of 43 / 50, eventhough my hands were colder den the tap water in the toilet. but i felt merrill shld hve gotten higher! he played dam well, probably owned all of us xD. zhemin n jiahong played the same song, that sounded almost exactly alike. haha, so ms goh was forced to give them around the same marks. even dng did rather well =D. so well, today (like 10 hrs later) will be arts @ atrium for our vocal quartet. hopefully we will sound okay. back to ytd...had dian nao you xi prac after MEP. had to rush to J8 to get take away dinner. dang, my twister fries turned cold on the way back =( but it was still gd. prac was reasonably good, xcept for the fact tt we had no bass guitar, n the electric guitars were a tad bit too soft. but yeah, now jongan can play his part almost perfectly. n gaby + jorel uber cute as usual. LOL. whee, finals in bout 2 weeks. hopefully all our hard work will nt go down the drain. well, i'd better go slp, mths test comin up soon.
2nd August 2006
RE presentation, mug for phy, mths, ss pt, choir stuff, infocomm work, competition. my life has been revolving around school. as i sit here and type, i can see it zip in and out of my head, spinning round and round, making me dizzy. soon i'll go crazy. soon...
for now, i'll just let each day slip by, each day soon becomes a week, a week soon becomes a month, a month soon becomes a year, a year soon becomes eternity. soon...
as for today, school was okay. history was rather enjoyable, n so was PE and cross country. ran bout < hullett ="D.">
1st August 2006
Rly tired now. c'mon.................still hve loads of work to do. i shall heave a another sigh of frustration. add a bowl of sadness, a teaspoon of bitterness, garnish with tears and put my sore eyes in the middle of it all. splatter with brains and bon appetite. bleh, school is stuffing us with everything that should have been done in the next 4 weeks, cuz of DMP. omg. give me a break, give all of us a break! yeah, there's where physics came to the rescue, and so did ss. interesting classes today, n rly lame, retarded, funny wadeva! we were makin lame puns throughout class, and so was our teacher. besides that, a lot of other crap n intellectual rubbish xD. wad fun we had. if only school would remain like this forever...sadly, dreams never existed in reality, day dreaming is the closest u can get. and its a wonderful thing. brings peace to your worn out brain cells, calms and soothes your weary soul. and best of all, it can be done in class. just dont get caught doing it. anyway, work still has to be completed. wad goes round comes round. I'll be laughing when the teachers start marking all the work they gave us. soon ;D. again i shall revert to my sad old self and engulf myself in mathematical calculations and scientific formulas....a daily process that is inevitable. ciao