comin thru

ytd the exco and SLs had a chat session with our conductor. at least now we know where we went wrong (=

he said we lacked conviction. our performance lacked the emotive energy displayed by Dunman, which attained a gwh. also, it was way too soft, and lacked clarity.

next, we weren't taking ownership of our instrument. many people were still sick (like 1/3 of the choir) 1 - 2 days before syf. and also, people were not prioritizing. there were those who chionged work, stayed up late, fooled arnd (ok i was one of them but i just cnt help it, it's just me , sry), yah.

also, we were nervous, and that led to a shaky start (vry unstable in fact). and then we lost focus halfway thru aftr our most difficult piece.

so ya, tht's wad he said.

wad i say, is simply that we were too concerned with our own music. our minds were set on making sure we didnt make any mistakes (like gettin the right pitch, rhythm, choreo etc.). what we left out in our performance was the audience. wad is a performance without an audience?

yeah, we made the grave mistake of not carrying our music TO the people, FOR the people. we were way too self-conscience. so nxt time, let's just sing for the people (people = us too of course). we will walk up that stage shamelessly, and just perform like sincere singers, full of conviction and energy.

it'll just be for those few minutes tht we immerse ourselves into the music, and transfer it from a black and white score to melodious music for everyone's ears. we'll sing not only with our minds, but with our hearts next time.

everyone can sing exceptionally well. now we just have to make sure we can perform well.

okay, so now this trying time has finally concluded (=

today, i went to lan with zee, tatwai n his bro, joshua, and daniel tay. haha, amazingly i still hvnt lost touch with dota (= yeah man, still can kill n win! woweweee xD i'm just glad tht nxt wk is gna be free! n yeah, everyone nids a decent break once in a while.

other than tht, cell n service was rather fine. haha, it was just so humurous to see ps ronald n his blender. he volunteered someone to be blindfolded. then he blended this disgusting vegetable juice for tht person to drink. aftr blending he gave a cup of water to tht person and asked her to drink it. she dared not, lol!

but someone else did la, brave guy yeah. smelling tht drink cld almost make me puke, wonder wad wld happen if i drank it o.O n yeh, it was gd cuz today i finally let go of all my disappointment, so now i'm back to normal again! ahh, the wonders of gng to church (=

oh yeah! n finally...a few pics (at full resolution i think) from my trusty phone cam! sry these were snapshots hehe, not too clear i suppose. they were taken ovr wed, thurs, n fri of the previous week.

dadaab n niu yi xD

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yeah man (=

=(

i dno wad to feel.

the songs we performed were of an acceptable standard. our hardest song...we did it better than expected (even our conductor did approve of it).

and then we got a gold, without honours. we anticipated it, but nvr did expect it. today seemed like one of our better days, but well. it is just is the way it is.

i dont know whether i shld b happy cuz we did better than what we expected, or whether i shld b sad cuz we didnt get what we wanted, or tht i shld be angry cuz i still left the stage with a lil regret still.

right now i'll just wait for this moment of uncertainty to pass. will ppl mock us for not getting a gold with honours? or will they be shocked? or rather, be afraid and wonder why we didnt get what they expected us to get?

and of course, i must brace myself and stand tall. i believe in rv; we believe in ourselves, and we'll pull through this together ya, dun let syf drag us down (=

just know tht we did what we could n did it as best as we could. it doesnt rly matter wad the world thinks now

Pics

testing my new phone's 3 megapixel cam xD haha enjoy! (it's a Samsung D900 btw)

kenneth took this on the way to rj

LIE WHY AM wheehehe

random rj guys with cool pants lol.

kermit

taken at slightly better resolution; candid shot of linan :P

Dadaab doing his famous DaaaaDaaaB smile, which is part of his famous DaaaaDaaaB dance! hahaha

kartik in ajay's shoes (=

kartik in ONE OF ajay's shoes; LOL! (=

yeah baby the cam seems good! i'll try to take a full resolution shot next time. okay enough alr i should be concentrating on syf (which is in two days!!!). today's prac was messed up yikes, gotta...nono....MUST be up to standard by tmr arghs

oh yea, congrats to xcountry b div for their good results (= houyes

c'mon

it's 4 days to SYF. congrats so far to RICO and RIMB for their achievements. RISE n RP, and of course RV, will be havin their performances in the next few days. scary perhaps?

well, nobody would want all their hard work to just go down the drain in one performance. so let's make it our best baby (= haha. also good luck to our sister sch!

much has happened in the past two weeks, and it's alr almost mid-term 2. yikes, how time flies past so fast. hmmm, workload still remains a constant, and will always be. darn the disgustin
truth

been going out quite a lot lately too. last last fri movie with M2eF ppl. haha a bit awkward but nontheless still enjoyable. not forgettin the morning excercise with gladys n zee n my sis (= yeah!

then last fri tortor n dadaab came ovr to do chinese. haha no prizes for guessing wad we did...5 lines of the project...in english. oh well, have to finish SOON. then we went for dinner, b4 i joined the lit ppl for a play (called "blithe spirit"). it was a GOOD play! one of the best i've seen...maybe cuz i dun go for many plays n i'm not a lit stdt in the 1st place xD ooo i dno how i ended up watching the play but who cares hehehe

then sat was RJ concert! houyes man, <3 rv. u guys did well, apart from the last page of jaakobin. otherwise an enjoyable performance. now we just have to make sure we dun look stupid while doing the choreo lol. 4 MORE DAYS! all the way let's gogogo for the goldgoldgold, hopefully with honours (= RJ chorale rocked too, esp their short comedy! haha bennett is just bennett, actin like a lil boy is surely his forte :P and lil boys' cheeks deserve to be pinched hehe! n of course, we did shout jia min in the end xD

sunday, ytd. i finally got a new phone! the sexy black samsung ultra edition 12.8/D900. got it at a special price (= nice functions, good feel, haha n finally a change of phone (from my ancient Sony Ericsson T100). also, got a free 32" lcd tv, n smart tv, n 2 free ex (rly ex hehe) pens, n 15% off monthly mobile subscription, 15% off maxonline, 10% off cabletv....haha it WAS a good day. blessed by god (=

and it is today, now. haha i am quite baffled by our conductor today. he....was....happy?! amazing but we all did think he was. lol, nvr seen him like this b4. n hope he continues to stay like this!

ahh wells, shldnt be slping too late these few days. drink plenty plenty water, take all my supplements n stay focused. c'mon, c'mon RV let's do this k.

5 minutes to tmr! slpslp, lol it feels good to slp early again (=

unforseen

today i heard that polo n softball couldnt get gold. polo lost to acsi 8-9, and wont be in the finals? softball is out cuz two other schs fix match to eliminate them. wth...

and then friends are becomin overworked, frustrated, havin low self-esteem and what not. conflicts, failure, and loss become part and parcel of our lives. i rly hate this, or is it cuz i just cant face it, eye to eye, like wad i am expected to do? i can only hope that i receive strength to deal with this. i do pray hard for it. i also pray hard for those who are crest-fallen, those broken and weary warriors. seeing you all in such a state makes my heart tear too. cheer up everyone (=

tmr is tracknfield. must get rdy if i am gna run for 4 x 100m relay; hvnt run this event since pri 6, n i dun even know my teammates. the irony of it all.

i stand in front of the mirror and i see the person inside there laughing at my sad life. he laughs not in arrogance nor in belittlement, but laughs along with me, at me. he tells me to stay positive, and i shall try.

pls give me strength dear father.