=(

i dno wad to feel.

the songs we performed were of an acceptable standard. our hardest song...we did it better than expected (even our conductor did approve of it).

and then we got a gold, without honours. we anticipated it, but nvr did expect it. today seemed like one of our better days, but well. it is just is the way it is.

i dont know whether i shld b happy cuz we did better than what we expected, or whether i shld b sad cuz we didnt get what we wanted, or tht i shld be angry cuz i still left the stage with a lil regret still.

right now i'll just wait for this moment of uncertainty to pass. will ppl mock us for not getting a gold with honours? or will they be shocked? or rather, be afraid and wonder why we didnt get what they expected us to get?

and of course, i must brace myself and stand tall. i believe in rv; we believe in ourselves, and we'll pull through this together ya, dun let syf drag us down (=

just know tht we did what we could n did it as best as we could. it doesnt rly matter wad the world thinks now