this is reality.

Damnit, my life is just so totally messed up I can just....sigh...you could say I've been rather depressed over the past few weeks/months. I do appear normal and happy in school and all that, but I'm just not satisfied with reality. The things that happen, totally unexpected and uncalled for. You could say I just need to get used to it. Used to how society works.

As someone told me, all this should be left behind...someday, some divine interventention would make all the pieces fit together. I'm really looking forward and praying hard for that day.

So well, about the visit to Rosyth...many people can't make it. Likewise for our class outing and MEP orch gathering. Yikes, this is so saddening. But i'll see what I can do.

*Need to get myself back on track (= I've sidetracked, and I dunno where I am!