9th August 2006

Dont be quick to judge! Argh, once again im back to my sleeping late ways. Because of work. And to come to think of it, DMP does not really help much...

Now that it is proven that DMP does not equal slack, I shall try to get back to my old ways, and forget about slacking. sigh, wad an opportunity! it was right there, yes, but still out of grasp. It was so close, just an inch more, I'm getting to it already! then it decided that I should go back and work more, i dont deserve my reward just yet, and poof, it vanished out of sight in an instant.

Sigh, at least im still glad its just DMP and its a holiday, not some loaded week. I'll look forward with each new day, yet, from experience, each day just passes by, like any other day, and a new day begins, AGAIN. wads there to look forward to? well, nothing much. but still, i have to agree that I WANT HOLS! yay, anyway, watched NDP on TV. It was OKAY, not that spectacular...so yeah, again, quite pointless. after that went to play Generals w/ jonlim, nick and soonyong. but it was screwed up as ever. Lag + DC. zzzzz, so we didn't have a complete game.

well, I shall try to be the most optimistic a pessimist can be, and hopefully, each day will start to have some meaning in them. !!! how stupid can I get. I will never find meaning in each day. Been so busy until I start forgetting about him. Jehovah Jira, he will provide. I need to come back to him, what stupidity...yes, at least now life has meaning =D. thnx for giving me that inspiration, that bright spark in the midst of darkness lord. u made me remember you.